It’s no secret that I struggle with my weight — and have all my life. It’s no wonder with all the abandonment, abuse, and confidence issues in my life. Even with all the healing I’ve had from therapy, I feel like I’ve reached a “stand off” and I’m stuck – I can’t seem to get to the root of why I don’t work harder to lose weight. Many times through my therapy, it was suggested that I attend a 12-step program. I tried it, but I always had a difficult time keeping my higher power “anonymous”. It just didn’t feel legitimate to me if I couldn’t own Him. After all, my faith in Christ was the main catalyst for my healing so far.
A year ago our church began a Celebrate Recovery ministry and I was curious. I learned that it wasn’t just for addicts and alcoholics, but it was for anyone with any kind of hurt, habit or hangup. Could this be the right avenue for me? I hesitated. I dragged my feet. I wondered. I always meant to make it to the meeting.
About a month ago, I decided to make the commitment. I finally found “the something” I’ve been missing…a Christ-centered program based on the 12 steps. This is a program where I’ll learn to work the steps and turn over my will to Christ. I’ll get (and give) some true accountability, I’ll learn how to make amends and grow my personal relationship with Christ. This last month has been one of vulnerability, realizations and connections, but I am now “unstuck” and God is moving in my life.
I’m sharing my story because I’m convinced I’m in the right place. Right now, I’m sharing from a place of weakness, not from a place of victory. I’ve been trying to do this work on my own without turning over my will to Christ…without accountability partners and without like-minded recovery friends. As I’ve begun to work the program I realize I’m here for more than a food addiction. I’m also working on control and anger issues as well as co-dependency and over-commitment. I’m turning my will over to Christ and I’m excited about my journey.
Do you have experience with a recovery program? I’d love to hear about it and learn from you.